Below are the 15 most recent journal entries recorded in satyr_dandy's LiveJournal:

Saturday, April 1st, 2006
Saturday April 1st, 2006 4:03pm	the reasoning Hey. Josh, I have given up on you a LONG time ago, so why start acting like a man now? You pale wonder. I think I loved you in a dream. Chris, you dumbfuck. I'm not even going to venture down the path that will eventually lead to me strangling you and other sundry violent acts. (don't smile, It'll be worse than sadistic) Mr.Relyk Duvall (RP name), I am not going to get attatched. You don't know it, but I got a vibe on thursday in class. And the shoes, darlin, don't forget the shoes :) *giggleglomps everyone* yes, even you... :).... "Today was gonna be the day, but they'll never throw it back yo you..." Might post something more interesting later Current Mood: enthralled
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Friday, March 17th, 2006
Friday March 17th, 2006 6:18pm	and it all started with some shoes... I really hope Sadie and Robert are the only ones who know about this site... I have, again, developed a small crush (I hate to call it that, as it sounds elementary) on this guy. It all started when he complimented me on my plaid shoes. Oh, no, I didn't like him right off the bat, but in time, after he started talking to me, I felt something blossom. And the strange and kind of egotistical thing is that I think he may like me. I just get a feeling. There are so many things that happen. Little things. I like the little things better than exravagent stuff. Shucks. The egotistical part is me thinking he would like me. But I'm not going to try to do anything. I've learned my lesson on that... Whatever happens, happens. (Que sera sera) And I figure that if I don't dwell on it any longer, I wont be hurt when I find out the truth. I had the same assumption about Brian, and we all know how that went... Current Mood: hopeful
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Monday, February 20th, 2006
Monday February 20th, 2006 8:06pm	dumdum dumdum I am utterly confused. Josh is going out with kayla still, to my knowledge. But he still is the first one to message me, and always the one to talk about sex first. I don't get it. So I built a wall. Mostly a wall of books, that, whenever I feel down, I can grab a book and start reading. And I'd have an escape to drown out the chaos of my own life. I wish I hadn't made such foolish mistakes in my life, but it's too late, I can tell. I can't go back to that bitch Alex and ell her to go fucking eat some more goddamn cheese and hoho's instead of manipulating me. I can't tell Sarah that she doesn't fucking know everything, but that sh'es still my friend. I can't tell my siblings that I wish it was them here (not in my exact position) instead of me. That they'd actually make something of themselves. I can't tell chris to bugger off. for life. I can't tell Robert that I'm sorry. I can't tell Josh that I'm waiting for him to dump Kayla and to go out with me. I can't tell the guy in my math class what beautiful eyelashes he has. I can't tell my mom that I love her (I've never said it to her at all, actually.) Do you have any idea why I can't say those things? Because I'm weak, that's why. And I'm fucking sick of it. I'm going to change for the better. To be more straightforward. I mean, at least I haven't got it as bad as the Topper's Four. Current Mood: listless
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Sunday, February 19th, 2006
Sunday February 19th, 2006 11:08am	lalalalalala..... feelings emerge! Like a butterfly from a cucoon! (silly)  Josh is going out with one of my friends. That man whore! :p (I'm so damn green with envy!!) Todd asked me out only after Sadie and Noel and god knows who else said no I said yes. I am very stupid the reason I said yes was because of point #1 I'm just so fucking glad that I am not happy. haha Sarcasm is the protest of the weak I use sarcasm... a lot I don't get why "Andy" can go out with a 16 year old when he said earlier in the year that I was too damn young. Well, hey-fucking-ho, I'm 16 now, bitch! Chris got mad at me over a picture of one of my friends. a guy friend. HE'S the one that's being a hypocrite here, and he knows it. God, I hate him with a firey burning raging fucking passion I gave Josh good advice (he said so too) and guess what? He didn't take it!! (I share maybe 1/4 of your pain, Robert) Brian told me last year that I shouldn't concentrate mainly on boys... That one would find me later when it really mattered... not during high school I wish that was true. He lies! >_< FUUUUUUCCCKKK YOU SHITHEAD! Maybe he'll take me to prom? Only as a last resort, o' course I can't audition for GSA because I forgot to send the reccomendation papers in on time. AND DAG DABBIT JUSTIN, IF YOU DON'T STOP FUCKING POKING ME AT LUNCH, I WILL ROUNDHOUSE KICK YOUR STUPID SENIOR FACE IN! Current Mood: angry
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Sunday, February 12th, 2006
Sunday February 12th, 2006 2:00pm	You know what.... I think I'm in love I really don't know how to define "love" but this is it. Maybe it has something to do with the look that is in his eyes (and mine) or maybe it has something to do with the way that time seems to simply float by magically when I think of him. And maybe with the way that I have a bigger heart now then I used to. Gah, I don't know Current Mood: loved
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Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
Tuesday January 24th, 2006 7:08pm	"wrong way, right way, bad luck. You've gotta be kidding me!" Wow, I'm not mad anymore. this convo has made my day. I'll just post a convo that I'm currently having with a dipshit named eric. Oh, it's so amusing. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Hello Jackie :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: hey there! Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Who exactly do you think you are? Saying that I don't help meagan? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: well, she told me that you didn't. I'm, of late, questionong my friend's honesty. Sorry, I kind of flipped out. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Whatever bitch Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You try to take one side of the story Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: and make a motherfucking judgement? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Who are you to judge me? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Fine, I'm rude Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: I'll admit it Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: But I dont go around judging you do I? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yes. and the thing that is more repulsive is that you don't care to fix it. I also admit that I am a bitch Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha, Repulsive :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yes. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: So you expect me to change the way I act, just so i meet your "standards" :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: no. god no. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: See, what people like you dont understand Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: is that your opinions dont mean a damn to me! Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Only one persons opinion matters to me :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: ok. and you think I care Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: sure as hell aint you :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: I'm flattered Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: So Dont mention me on your xanga Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Period. :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: so let me get this straight. I don't have the right to say anything about things that are personal on my personal sight? I do believe I have the given right to say whatever the hall I want on there. and you're getting worked up over one damn sentence, comment on my xanga, add me to msn to tell me that I have no god damn right to state my opinion. I was under the impression that you didn't care, so why do you care about what I wrote there? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: hmmm... Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: I said your opinion doesnt mean a damn thing to me. Still doesnt mean I want you posting my fucking name on your fucking site. Didn't say you had no right to state your opinion. But you do not have the right to state your opinion about me. You ever heard the phrase one persons rights end where anothers begins"? Yours ended right at the second you mentioned my name in a slanderous manner. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: And im not gonna even pretend that i spelled that right Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: So Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: FUCK YOU :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: lol, you amuse me, eric Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: And you annoy me. Don't mention my name on your xanga again. Comprende? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: no habla tonto Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Tu as nul. Tu as souffland la petite amis meagan. :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: your french amuses me i lovє you to dєath, єric!!! <3 let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster. says: haha :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: eric, you do not know me. you do not know that I do not have nothing. That is just what you want to believe. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha, funny thing Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Thats not even whjat I said :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: wanna bet Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You are a dumbfuck :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: reall? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: really Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Tu as nul. "you are useless" :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yes. it literally translates inti "you have nothing" look it up :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: into* Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: didnt say shit about you having nothing :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: well that's what it translates to Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Interesting. My dictionary translates it into useless Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Do you know what the second part said bitch? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: you know, I don't really care. say what you will about me, but I already have my opinion on myself, and anything you say cannot change it Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha, Just because you cant face the fact Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: that maybe Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: just maybe Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: That you were incorrect Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: does not mean that you have to rely on cheap ass Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: fallbacks :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: that's like the pot calling the kettle black Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Tu as chienne motherfucker :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: tu eres muy pendejo Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You think I care what you call me? Face it Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: you are the pompous one :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: oh really? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: you are the one that cannot accept being wrong Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: I know i'm not always right. And unlike you, I do not find it necessary that everyone else share my opinion :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: ha...ha... very funny. Who are you to tell me that I have to have everyone share my opinion? you don't know me, because if you did you'd know that I'm the direct opposite of that Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha, right Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: I remember you from last year Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Always thinking that you, and brittany, and the rest of you were better than me Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: and getting pissy Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: and then getting even more pissed Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: once I was no longer friends with you Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You and ur la petite amis brittany :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: um, no. we got pissed because you never did any work. just sat around. you're going to deny it aren't you? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Not did any work my ass Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: If I didnt do any work Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You tell me how I had a 98.7 :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: it's a mystery Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You see, you just dont wanna face it Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: That I just shot down your little bitch ass insult Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Me not doing any work i lovє you to dєath, єric!!! <3 let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster. says: *yawn* :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yeah go ahead and paint a fucking big picture of yourself like that Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Big picture? I dont need a picture Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: I know who I am Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: And Ill be satisfied with a statue :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: ah, of course Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: And I can already see how tomorrows gonna go Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You're gonna go in Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: and you and all the rest of your dyke friends are gonna bitch Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: about this whole conversation :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: no, actually, I wasn't going to say anything Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Uh huh, and I can guaruntee your little bitch of a friend meagen would have had something to say about this convo by third hour :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: no, I wouldn't tell her. I'd tell Sadie. If I wanted to tell anyone Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha. Sadie. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: She's what Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: your lesbian lover? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: oh, very mature of you Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: and insulting my maturity makes you any more mature? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: no. I'm more mature anyway Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: See, you dont even deny being a fucking lesbian!! Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha, right :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: I'm not a lesbian. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha, you have to be at least bi :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: no. I'm not. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Or just fucking insane :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yes. that last one is right Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You have an obvious fixation on your friends :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yes I do. and I don't feel like getting into why Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: and it just so happens that they are chicks? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: no. I have guy friends too Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Because you dont want to reveal that your a lesbian Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: or bi Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: whatever you pick :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: oh my fucking god. you are so stupid Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Now whos the immature one? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: you are. still. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: And you say that i'm the one that says im always right? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: that im pompous :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yeah, you've nailed it Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: to use your own words againsdt you thats the pot calling the kettle black Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You stupid fucking DYKE! :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: oh, I'm so insulted! I'm not a lesbian. And I know it inside, and that's why I don't care if a retarded eminem calls me one Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Eminem? Haha Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: the idea of me liking rap Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: is so absurd :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: but, see... I wouldn't put it past you Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Its not even funny anymore Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: See, now that proves another thing Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You are the one who doesnt know SHIT about me :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: I know, but I can infer things. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Infer? From what? Oooh, I had my hair blonde Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: big Fucking deal :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yup. just like you think that I am a lesbian because my hair is short Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha, now thats quite funny Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: seing as I havent even looked at your nasty ass hair Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: I have absolutely no reason to look at you :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: then how would you know it was nasty? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: period :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: and how then, do you gather that I am a lesbian? if you couldn't look at me or even talk to me in the room, how would you know? Or was it just something you said for lack of something to type? or were you judging me? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha, more of an educated guess. From reading your site I can "infer" that at the very least you have serious fucking mental problems :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yes. why read it, though? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: You are fucking obsessed with your friends Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: and they just *happen* to be girls Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: I think not :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: I ING TOLD YOU I DO NOT WANT TO GET INTO THAT ISSUE WITH SOMEONE I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT!! It has nothing to do with my goddamn sexuality. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: ooh, emoticons really impressive :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yes, I know Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Just admit, that you dont want to face that side of your self Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Because you know Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: that inside, you'd roll over for your sick little lesbian friends Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: any day of the week :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: just admit, you are just being stupid. just trying to accuse me of something. why is this conversation going on still? and quote me when I was obsessed with my friends in that sort of way? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: haha, thats all you talk about Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: your friends and your shitty little art projects Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: and boojs. haha Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: someone needs a life maybe? Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: **books :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: yes. well, the someone is you. stooping so low as to go through my whole site? :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: its amusing Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Haha, didnt go through your whole site Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Read until my name showed up :: Ojos Secos :: ¿qué tienen I hecho? Ah, how people amuse me so says: no, that's ok. Eric - I LOVE YOU KAYLA!!! 'TIL DEATH DO US PART!! says: Tu as chienne. Remember that.Because thats all you are. A stupid little bitch that's gonna end up alone, with no friends, and just her brother to keep her company. Current Mood: pissed off
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Saturday, January 21st, 2006
Saturday January 21st, 2006 11:58pm	kjfshdgfksjdfvfhfxtds Powerful Words By Inanimate Objects My heart is living in Victorian times Got caught by a sword in the dead of night Spliced in two, by the sharpened blade of jealousy, And it was my own. I've caused all this mental Bleeding and Pain, Feelings like velcro, And me, not being able to Let Go. I chose not to stop thinking that way, Hoping that my wild dream would come alive. You see, this mask of flowers and smiles I'm wearing, Is just part of a ballroom masquerade, It hides the feelings that dwell inside me And I bottle them up inside, hoping they would go away To be a parasite to another unsuspecting soul The pain eats at my brain and devours me whole, Reduces me to a shadow of the woman I used to be Oh, how I yearn to be just like everyone in this gleeful castle, But I can't help sitting alone, just below peeling paint, Paint that had, that night become my friend, Whilst all the guests were dancing gaily, It showed me the proper way to wither away, To not matter To be alone And I took the wall's wondering words to heart, So, I lie in bed, alone with a book And I didn't even bother to pick up The shards of my heart that were left behind "If the time comes, I'll go back to find it" I thought, engrossed in someone elses words. "you're wasting away," said the book, in a kind of rythem Like the pounding of feet on the wide open dancefloor Those words were too late, for she had fallen asleep -end- Sorry, it's horrible. I just made it up on the spur of the moment. Just me and the keyboard. I told you it was nothing. Goodbye Current Mood: indescribable
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Friday, January 20th, 2006
Friday January 20th, 2006 9:52pm	what's really wrong with me (unedited version) Ok. First off, I am sick. As in the regurgitating kind of sick. Second, I am melancholy, but happy at the same time. Is that possible? Here's why: I am happy because I have great friends (yes, even the one that hurt me) There would be no way in hell I'd quit being friends with someone over that. Anyway, I'm upset because nobody likes me "like that"... I'm always "just a friend" or something to that effect. When I see happy couples walking down the hall at school, holding hands, I become cynical, and guess how long it will be before one of them is left to fend for themself, eyes filled with sorrow. I imagine that... and then I invision it happening to me. And I grow into a bout of extreme solitude. Like today, I could have gone to a party, but I didn't. I know what the guys there are like. But that is beside the point. I told Gretchen how I got let down, and I told her I was thankful, which is true. She asked me why I was thankful. I replied that I was glad he didn't wait... Like any other guy would have done. At that moment, I cherished the honesty more than ever. Sure, we should still meet, but I need time to gather my thoughts, as I'm really confused about things right now. I also should add that there has been some good out of this (I am not entirely pessemistic!) Getting let down in the way that I did, made me become an overachiever. Just to prove that I could do it. That I'm just as good as anyone else. It worked. I made a 95% on a MATH quiz, and made a 71% on a world civ test (when I usually make 50's) Current Mood: anxious
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Monday, January 16th, 2006
Monday January 16th, 2006 12:07am	nevermind I feel bettre. Damn the mood swings. Corrie has made my day. the summer we graduate, we're going to be seriously "road trippin'" Canada, Japan, and...Iowa?! (Just kidding about the Iowa part) I do have friends after all. That makes me happy. *hugs everyone* ^__^ (I wish I knew how to edit posts on here!)
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Sunday, January 15th, 2006
Sunday January 15th, 2006 11:50pm	I feel minimal. that's all for now.
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Sunday January 15th, 2006 5:06pm	sports and much hyperness I'm very happy today! The Steelers fucking won the Colts game!!! Woo... that guy from the colts who supposedly "never missed a kick at a home game" missed his opportunity to tie the game. Oh, boy, did that make me giddy! Anyway, I'm doing better than I was last night. the Odessy is on. mythology is most excellent to me. Ohhh...I've become obsessed with this one song by Malice Mizer. It's "the shiznit" :p I can't freaking wait untill my birthday. I get a camera, and much fun/chaos/awesomeness will ensue. Hopefully...No... It definately will. My minions shall help me make movies. Ohh... this shall be the most fun ever. *cackles* *coughs* I'm sorry for being assinine at the moment, but I can't help it. *runs around the room with her tea* and I feel like posting a song! Isn't that great?! So enjoy... or get the hell out! ;) "In A Graveyard"--- Rufus Wainwright (he has the most quoteable lyrics) Wandering properties of death Arresting moons within our eyes and smiles We did rest Amongst the granite tombs to catch our breath Worldly sounds of endless warring Were for just a moment silent stars Worldly boundaries of dying Were for just a moment never ours All was new Just as the black horizons blue Then along the bending path away I smiled in knowing I’d be back one day   Current Mood: enthralled
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Saturday, January 14th, 2006
Saturday January 14th, 2006 11:48pm	stuff I'm too shy to put on xanga. I haven't been feeling to hot all day. I'm sick of EVERYTHING. I'm on the verge of tears because I'm so fucking inarticulate. I keep getting inundated with questions that I do know the answer to, but I can't put in words. I wish that people could just take my word for it. If I like someone, I do have good reasons for liking them. Ones that I've already told the person more than once. So why do I have to repeat them over and over? And it's not just that... It's like that person is wanting to find a reason to tell me that he doesn't like me anymore...or never did in the first place...I hate being in this situation. I'm glad I've stopped cutting myself a long time ago, because this would be a great time. Instead I'll settle for tugging at my hair. very hard...and growling...at my own unwordlyness. I need to go to my happy place... bed or the woods. or both at once. that'd be cool. ok, I'm calming down DAMN YOU PATRIOTS! Current Mood: depressed
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Sunday, December 11th, 2005
Sunday December 11th, 2005 7:35am	RANDOM POST O' NOTHINGNESS! Icon Makers: grrliz (great cedric stuff) scarlett_h (queen!!icons) potterpuffs (unfortunately she shut down, but the legacy lives on!) dreadnought (made my Brady icon ^-^) there are many more, but I don't feel like typing *blergh*   I'ma go make my christmas list now! Current Mood: determined
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Saturday, December 10th, 2005
Saturday December 10th, 2005 6:07pm	hey again how do you all like my layout?! it's fenominal if you ask me. I have nothing to say right now, except that I'm mad at someone that you don't know. So it won't matter if I tell you it's chris. XD Current Mood: moody
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Saturday December 10th, 2005 5:54pm	heya! testing...testing
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